An emptyness engulfs me

[winterizer]

Therapy today went fine. I was quite tired, though, and I think it showed. After that, I hung out with Sam and Yori. But they want to go on a thrift store tour and I don't feel like going to a lot of them today, plus I shouldn't really buy more stuff. I went to one today to meet them there and ended up already buying things again. They wanted to go to some thrift stores further away, but I was walking instead of cycling, so I just went home instead. And now I am here. In my room. Alone. Tired. Lonely, I guess. I don't know. I like meeting up with people (SOMETIMES), but afterwards I just feel hollow and like shit. I don't know what I want with my life. If I'm alone for long, I get lonely, but if I meet up with people, I no longer feel a lot of satisfaction. Maybe I was just born to be lonely and suffering.