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Caffeine causes more dopamine to be in your brain? So THAT is why Monster Energy hits different than regular soda and makes me feel more calm and content.
Made a Plurk account that I'll probably forget about in a week. But hey, if you want to, you can add me on there. My username is WiNTERiZER.
Yes, I'm still alive. No, I'm not too pleased about it either.
I'm tired, but I don't think I can sleep with this temperature. Good thing I recently bought DOOM and DOOM II for my Nintendo Switch. Maybe I'll just lie half-naked on my bed and take out some bad guys. Sun's next.
At least the heatwave is almost over now. Just a little bit longer, and shit will go back to normal. Well, weather-wise anyway.
The only good thing about heatwaves is that everybody suffers as much as I do all summer.
My wounds are almost healed, but my relationship with my mother isn't. Good morning...
After wanting to go for ten years, I finally went to Comic Con for the first time yesterday. It was a lot of fun (aside from the AI-generated bullshit at some stalls). I'll probably post a vlog/picture dump video from it on YouTube soon. Right now I have a really bad fucking headache, though. Yuck.
At least I didn't buy that first aid kit for nothing...
My mother just said that Pulp Fiction is horrible and that Quentin Tarantino movies suck?! She's crazy.
Both my exams went well. My American history exam grade was just... decent. My American politics essay exam grade was really high, though. My South-America class grade also ended up being surprisingly high (given that I don't really care about those topics). I've passed all my classes without resits this year, so that's nice. Next year is going to suck, though. They've been moving shit around because the uni is losing money, or whatever. So they took out almost all the fun stuff and also the best teachers. Fucking fantastic. Should've killed myself in high school.
Anyway, my summer break's been quite eventful so far. I love being alone, but since my mother is almost always home I'm hardly ever actually alone, so I've been trying to get out of the house as much as possible. I've been hanging out with friends more. Not always just to chill, but also to help them with stuff. Anything to not be around my mother, I guess. She puts me so on edge.
Also a lot of birthday parties going on in summer. I have mine in August despite my birthday being in April, because then most people could show up for the party, lol. Last week was Yori's party, this week I'm celebrating my sister's birthday (followed directly by Comic Con on Sunday), and next week I'll be at Julie's birthday party.
What else do I have to say... Oh yeah! The Backrooms movie sux, LOL.
Anyway, my summer break's been quite eventful so far. I love being alone, but since my mother is almost always home I'm hardly ever actually alone, so I've been trying to get out of the house as much as possible. I've been hanging out with friends more. Not always just to chill, but also to help them with stuff. Anything to not be around my mother, I guess. She puts me so on edge.
Also a lot of birthday parties going on in summer. I have mine in August despite my birthday being in April, because then most people could show up for the party, lol. Last week was Yori's party, this week I'm celebrating my sister's birthday (followed directly by Comic Con on Sunday), and next week I'll be at Julie's birthday party.
What else do I have to say... Oh yeah! The Backrooms movie sux, LOL.
My second exam went pretty well too, I think. I only managed to really study about half of the stuff, but luckily almost all questions were about those weeks, and we could choose two questions to skip. Half of it was a long essay, and I ended up just ranting about how Abraham Lincoln shouldn't have made the Civil War about slavery. Sorry, Abe. :P My Summer break's been going on for a few days now. I've mostly just been playing videogames and drawing. Not expecting much change any time soon, especially with these temperatures. Haven't felt particularly sociable lately anyway. Everyone mostly just pisses me off.
My exam today went well, I think. It was a ~1500-word essay and I think I touched on the sources well. I've been studying a bit for Wednesday, but there is still so fucking much to go through and the exam is so quick already... Guess I won't get a great grade for that class. :/ I'm excited to have some time off, but also I know how I get when I have a lot of free time, so... :P
I'm done with my eight-page summary for my American Politics exam tomorrow. ...Now I still need to start studying for my American History exam on Wednesday... ...which has even more readings...
I've been very productive. (Because otherwise I am reminded of the things that really matter.)
Today's my last class of the academic year. Next week I have two exams, and then Summer vay cay tion.
Can't believe I'm almost at the end of my first year in uni already...
Can't believe I'm almost at the end of my first year in uni already...
Just Dance for the Nintendo Switch? Played.
Me? Sleepy.
Me once again failing to buy cool KMFDM merch? Unsurprising and yet disappointing.
Me? Sleepy.
Me once again failing to buy cool KMFDM merch? Unsurprising and yet disappointing.
Going to post here because I'm too lazy to write in my journal and no one ever fucking reads my blog anyway.
My teacher hadn't said anything about there not being class today, but in the syllabus it read that this week's lecture is just to refer back to last week's lecture, so I emailed my teacher about whether we had class or not. She didn't reply at all, but Julie was already in the city, so I said that even if we didn't have class, I'd go to the city to hang out with her, to which she replied with a positive WhatsApp sticker. I missed my regular train, so I had to take one later. Technically not a problem, but it became a problem because that train was then also delayed. So I hurried on my way to the academy building, in which I also momentarily got lost, but then when I came to class it was just Myrthe, Julie, and two or three other people. My teacher hadn't shown up. I'd hurried for nothing. But I was excited because at least we could hang out. But then Julie said she wanted to go to the station and go home. She was the whole reason I was even fucking there. Myrthe did want to stay longer, but then I'd have to train back on my own, and I didn't want that either. So we didn't do anything fun.
And Julie got me a birthday present. A CD of Trench from Twenty One Pilots. Pretty cool, since that was on my birthday wishlist, but I noticed it was still in foil. I asked her if she got it second-hand, which is something I explicitly requested for my presents because most artists are assholes, abusers, and/or pedos, but she said she couldn't find it second-hand for a decent price, so she just got it new. Now I feel bad about putting it on my wishlist, because although by far not the worst people on the list, I don't like Tyler Joseph and don't want to give him my money. The whole reason for putting so many things on my wishlist is that you can just get me other stuff from it when you can't find something second-hand. I feel like no one takes what I say seriously, except maybe Yori. Maybe I should just cancel my birthday party altogether and hang out with Yori.
I feel like absolute shit and want everyone to just fucking die.
My teacher hadn't said anything about there not being class today, but in the syllabus it read that this week's lecture is just to refer back to last week's lecture, so I emailed my teacher about whether we had class or not. She didn't reply at all, but Julie was already in the city, so I said that even if we didn't have class, I'd go to the city to hang out with her, to which she replied with a positive WhatsApp sticker. I missed my regular train, so I had to take one later. Technically not a problem, but it became a problem because that train was then also delayed. So I hurried on my way to the academy building, in which I also momentarily got lost, but then when I came to class it was just Myrthe, Julie, and two or three other people. My teacher hadn't shown up. I'd hurried for nothing. But I was excited because at least we could hang out. But then Julie said she wanted to go to the station and go home. She was the whole reason I was even fucking there. Myrthe did want to stay longer, but then I'd have to train back on my own, and I didn't want that either. So we didn't do anything fun.
And Julie got me a birthday present. A CD of Trench from Twenty One Pilots. Pretty cool, since that was on my birthday wishlist, but I noticed it was still in foil. I asked her if she got it second-hand, which is something I explicitly requested for my presents because most artists are assholes, abusers, and/or pedos, but she said she couldn't find it second-hand for a decent price, so she just got it new. Now I feel bad about putting it on my wishlist, because although by far not the worst people on the list, I don't like Tyler Joseph and don't want to give him my money. The whole reason for putting so many things on my wishlist is that you can just get me other stuff from it when you can't find something second-hand. I feel like no one takes what I say seriously, except maybe Yori. Maybe I should just cancel my birthday party altogether and hang out with Yori.
I feel like absolute shit and want everyone to just fucking die.
My homework readings are boring the shit out of me. Fuck man, some of this shit couldn't be more boring if they tried.
I know aging up means nothing anymore when you're an adult, but I'm still feeling vaguely melancholy about tomorrow being my birthday. Like I shouldn't have lived to see it.