No more chemistry

So I had my chemistry final today. It didn't go well, but I already expected that, and it's not too big of a deal. It feels weird to realize this was probably the last chemistry test I ever had to do. It's nice and exciting, but at the same time makes me feel strange and hollow. I guess I'm just not very good with change...

Tomorrow I don't have an exam, so I can sleep in. I guess that's nice. Last night I didn't get too much sleep, and I got really bad dreams. The ones you don't even want to think back about. Yeah...

I still feel so empty throughout it all. And I get that that's partially the fault of it being just past 9 pm, because everything always sucks at 9 pm, but my life just feels fucking weird. I'm at the end of this chapter, but yet the page isn't being turned. The chapter is over, but God is just staring at the empty space on the paper. That's where my life is now. In the beige void of nothingness.

Even though I try, it's almost impossible to be excited for the future. It's just... too much. Pass me the pump already.