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I had a talk with my boss, and I'll only be working two mornings this week to say goodbye and then I can quit. My boss was being so nice. Maybe it's because I brought my mother to the talk and she does respect her/is scared of her, but it was like someone killed my boss and had inhabited her body. Really weird, but a nice kind of weird, I suppose. Ever since I had that talk, I have been feeling more and more relaxed. It feels like I can finally get some peace and quiet after months of depression and anger building up. My psychologist said I had handled well with quitting my job if it makes me feel this bad, and even my boss agreed, and she doesn't even fully know how bad I've been feeling.
It's not like I don't go out anymore now I don't have a job, though. It's important I go out and meet people, but that's not in question. I meet up with Sam and Yori a lot. They're my best friends (and I guess Adrian too, but he's also my other half, so am I supposed to mention him?) and I usually see them once or twice a week. We hung out all day this Saturday. We fucked around in the woods (it was so cold), hung out at the library and then we went on to watch two porn movies and eat junk food at my house. I know this plan sounds insane (it is), but one of the movies was called Trannies in Wonderland (fucking add it so I didn't suffer for nothing, Letterboxed!) and we were all just too curious about that title to not watch it. It was very disappointing, but thank God women aren't real anyway. Then we watched Erotic Survivor, which is a bit hard to sit through because of the stupid lesbian porn, but it is so fucking funny. It's one of the movies Joey Smack and William Hellfire were in and I've watched it before. Yori fell asleep at some point and asked me if they missed anything and I just went "mostly just porn" and they were like "oh, then I didn't miss much", LOL. It would've been so cool if William Hellfire, Joey Smack and company would've made more non-porn movies, because they're genuinely so fucking funny. Sex is for pussies, laughter is for legends. But anyway, we also tried chips we found at the store that were "dick flavor" and "pussy flavor" and GOD, they were fucking gross. If I didn't want sex before, I definitely don't want it anymore now. Not until you all start tasting like Doritos, anyway, LOL.
Yesterday and today I've just been chilling. Not too long until Trump's inauguration takes place, so I might read a bit and then watch that. Fucking wild he's going to be president again. He's going to fuck up the climate even more, but at this point I don't even really care anymore, because maybe then humanity and all other life will go extinct more quickly. Yori and I (well, mostly Yori) recently talked to some of those Jesus people that stand somewhere in public to tell you that God and Jesus can save your souls and one of them asked me what I thought of the afterlife. I said I hoped it's just nothing. He said that if evolution was true, that we all just are here by chance and that there is no inherent meaning to life. Yup, welcome to reality, dumbass. He said Jesus died for my sins. I fucking hate that, actually. Jesus did not die for my sins. If God created Adam and Eve so incapable that they were immediately pursuaded by evil, then *I* die for *God's* sins. And you know, that's not the end of the world, I guess. I mean, that's what parenting is. You get born without your consent and then have to figure things the fuck out and deal with all the misery of the people before you. God's the parent of the world, right? Then how can They be pure? How can anything kindhearted create life? It's all sick and fucked up. Humanity is a disease.
It's not like I don't go out anymore now I don't have a job, though. It's important I go out and meet people, but that's not in question. I meet up with Sam and Yori a lot. They're my best friends (and I guess Adrian too, but he's also my other half, so am I supposed to mention him?) and I usually see them once or twice a week. We hung out all day this Saturday. We fucked around in the woods (it was so cold), hung out at the library and then we went on to watch two porn movies and eat junk food at my house. I know this plan sounds insane (it is), but one of the movies was called Trannies in Wonderland (fucking add it so I didn't suffer for nothing, Letterboxed!) and we were all just too curious about that title to not watch it. It was very disappointing, but thank God women aren't real anyway. Then we watched Erotic Survivor, which is a bit hard to sit through because of the stupid lesbian porn, but it is so fucking funny. It's one of the movies Joey Smack and William Hellfire were in and I've watched it before. Yori fell asleep at some point and asked me if they missed anything and I just went "mostly just porn" and they were like "oh, then I didn't miss much", LOL. It would've been so cool if William Hellfire, Joey Smack and company would've made more non-porn movies, because they're genuinely so fucking funny. Sex is for pussies, laughter is for legends. But anyway, we also tried chips we found at the store that were "dick flavor" and "pussy flavor" and GOD, they were fucking gross. If I didn't want sex before, I definitely don't want it anymore now. Not until you all start tasting like Doritos, anyway, LOL.
Yesterday and today I've just been chilling. Not too long until Trump's inauguration takes place, so I might read a bit and then watch that. Fucking wild he's going to be president again. He's going to fuck up the climate even more, but at this point I don't even really care anymore, because maybe then humanity and all other life will go extinct more quickly. Yori and I (well, mostly Yori) recently talked to some of those Jesus people that stand somewhere in public to tell you that God and Jesus can save your souls and one of them asked me what I thought of the afterlife. I said I hoped it's just nothing. He said that if evolution was true, that we all just are here by chance and that there is no inherent meaning to life. Yup, welcome to reality, dumbass. He said Jesus died for my sins. I fucking hate that, actually. Jesus did not die for my sins. If God created Adam and Eve so incapable that they were immediately pursuaded by evil, then *I* die for *God's* sins. And you know, that's not the end of the world, I guess. I mean, that's what parenting is. You get born without your consent and then have to figure things the fuck out and deal with all the misery of the people before you. God's the parent of the world, right? Then how can They be pure? How can anything kindhearted create life? It's all sick and fucked up. Humanity is a disease.
