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I haven't written here in a while. I don't know if anyone even reads this anymore. Not sure I care anymore.
The past few days have been relatively meh. My birthday was just like a lot of other days: pretty bad. But what else do you expect with my family? My birthday party together with Sam was... alright, I guess. I don't know. I had fun at the Freedom Festival on the 5th, but aside from that things have been pretty meh. When I don't hang out with people, I miss the social interaction, but when I do hang around people, I usually get depressed from the repetitiveness of it. Same spots, same activities, same jokes. It's all just the same. I fucking hate it.
I want to hang out more with Jari, but he's constantly busy with other stuff, and I want to hang out more with Sven, but I don't think he really likes me or any of us very much. I don't know.
It's just lonely, I guess. It sucks to feel lonely in the hollowness of the interactions with others that have become so static.
The past few days have been relatively meh. My birthday was just like a lot of other days: pretty bad. But what else do you expect with my family? My birthday party together with Sam was... alright, I guess. I don't know. I had fun at the Freedom Festival on the 5th, but aside from that things have been pretty meh. When I don't hang out with people, I miss the social interaction, but when I do hang around people, I usually get depressed from the repetitiveness of it. Same spots, same activities, same jokes. It's all just the same. I fucking hate it.
I want to hang out more with Jari, but he's constantly busy with other stuff, and I want to hang out more with Sven, but I don't think he really likes me or any of us very much. I don't know.
It's just lonely, I guess. It sucks to feel lonely in the hollowness of the interactions with others that have become so static.
Thoughts
Date: 2025-05-13 01:15 am (UTC)From:Well, I spotted it on Latest Things.
Right now is Three Weeks for Dreamwidth (April 25-May 15), with lots of extra activity and fun things to do. The Follow Friday Master Post has lists of active communities by topic where you can look for some based on your interests.
>>When I don't hang out with people, I miss the social interaction, but when I do hang around people, I usually get depressed from the repetitiveness of it. Same spots, same activities, same jokes. It's all just the same.<<
If travel is affordable for you, that's often a good way to shake things up. If not, sometimes you can find places in your locale that you don't frequent. Explore a new hobby or food. Try something a little off the wall.
>> It sucks to feel lonely in the hollowness of the interactions with others that have become so static.<<
That can happen.
There are many ways to create meaning. Some people do it with creativity. Some work on environmental projects. Others like volunteering. It depends on your personality and skills what will appeal to you. Me, I don't care what most people think, but if a new bird likes my yard, I get excited.